So sad

Christmas posts to come.... but this needs to be posted first.

I am so sad. Betsy's birthmom is in jail/prison (I really don't know the difference... when do you say prison vs jail? does it really matter).

This dark cloud has been hanging over my head for a week and a half.

She'd been "clean and sober" for a year and a half. She'd been working a program, back in college, she had a car... she saw a future for herself.

Unfortunately, after the placement of Betsy at birth, she started to struggle. She didn't seek counseling that was recommended.

I had seen some "red flags". We prayed for her regularly. But I think I knew something was wrong.

On December 14th, the birth mom's mother called me and shared the news. She'd been arrested for burglary, possession, and trafficking, and since this was her third offense, she would be looking at maximum sentences.

Ugh. It pains me to write this.

Betsy's birth mom has two daughters. One of them, Sammy, she's been raising. Her other daughter, Maddy, lives with Maddy's father. Prayers for these innocent two little girls are needed. I know that Betsy will have to learn the truth someday that her birth mom was addicted to drugs but I also know that Betsy is in a loving and secure home. Her bio sisters still face daily turmoil and this is upsetting.

So, that's where "I've been"... sorting through Advent and Christmas with this dark cloud on me.